Monday, 8 July 2013

chapter 4

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previously..

with that we went from screaming and shouting to complete silence .. i? i just walked away silently with tears in my eyes..

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" i didnt feel like going home so i just decided to walk around the neighborhood..and that made me think.. bader? loves me? me? he loves me ? it might be a crush! i cant risk going through all this again..i just cant"

i decided to have a vacation i relaxing one .. i decided to go to Germany to be specific Essen its not that much of a popular place but since i own a house there then y not? its quite and awesome there..

when i got home i walking over to my laptop and booked a one way ticket i honestly dont know till when am i going to stay there after i finished my booking i decided to pack and leave an outfit for uni 2morow and then the airport since im going straight after uni..when i was done i decided to skip dinner and slept..

woke up next morning took a relaxing shower got dressed curled me hair and was ready to go..i wasn't planning to attend any of my classes i just wanted to give the dc. a letter that im leaving for couple of days..when i was few steps away from class i saw a familiar guy standing next to the door ..guess who?

it was bader..i wanted to ignore his presence but pft FAIL!!

bader: samar shloonch..?

me: good

bader: your late 

me: i know 

bader: ur not in a hurry as usual 

me: nope , im not 

i noticed that he was staring at the letter in my hand or actually reading it 

bader: so whats that?

me: is it your business ?  

bader: um no sorry 

me: thats better

i knocked on the door and entered i apologized for disturbing the class and asked to see the teacher out side .. we stepped out of the class and i can see bader close enough to hear the conversation that was going on ..

me: i just wanted to tell u that im travelling today and i dont know for how long in the letter i just gave u my e-mail is there if you would please send me my homework on it and ill figure things out

dc: yeah sure 

me: thankyou 

with that the dc went back to class and i was about to leave when bader came and stood in front of me blocking my way

bader: you're leaving?

me: yes

bader: why ??????

me: cuz i want to 

bader: are u coming back ?

me: well i dont know 

bader: at least tell me where and when ?

me: today @3pm

bader: samar please i need to talk to u 

me: im sorry but i dont have time .. i have to go 

after that i left .. the look on his face broke my heart in to pieces but i didnt have any other choice .. " please forgive me" 

2Pm i made my way out of my apartment with my bag locking the door and making sure i didnt forget anything  made my way outside to the taxi and was off to the airport .. after the airports stuff i had to do i was finally seated on the airplane's 1st class seat .. there was an old man seated next to me but then he got up and i sensed some one sitting on he seat beside me i thought it was the old man but i was surprised so surprised to find bader sitting next to me holding my hand and looking at me with teary eyes..i shoved his hand off of mine..

me: what are u doing here ?

bader: you need to listen to me 

me: i wont listen leave me alone 

bader: i wont just please listen 

me: GN

i faced the window and started tearing " true i have feelings for him but i have to hide it i cant risk it i just cant ! " 

when we arrived and exited the airplane i went got my bag and was off to my house .." where is bader staying ? will he be okay? most of them here dont sppeak english or the know english but dont want to help .. ughh" i remembered that i had his phone number i prayed that it is working and called .. i waited and waited an.. 6oo6 6oo6 YES ringing 

..: hallo ?

me: hallo .. bader?

..:Sind Sie der Typ Frau ist? ( are you the guy's wife? )


me: ja ( yes)

..: bekam er in einem schlimmen Autounfall, er ist jetzt im Krankenhaus. ( he got in to a bad car accident he's in the hospital now.)

me: WAT? ( WHAT?)Bitte gib mir die Anschrift! ( PLEASE GIVE ME THE ADDRESS)

..: **************

ME: DANKE ( THANX)

i stormed to the hospitla and asked about him they told me the room number and i rushed to him .. i peeked from the window on the door he looked heart breaking his head was wrapped he had scars all over his body the doctor came out of his room .. 

dc: hello 

me: hello 

dc: you speak english?

me: yes .. please tell me is he alright ? 

dc: are you his wife ? 

me: yes yes i am 

dc: the car accident was severe i think he'll be in a coma for sometime 

me: what why ?? was it that bad ?? 

dc: yes .. im sorry 

me: can i see him ?

dc: sure but dont take long he needs some rest 

me: thankyou 

i entered the room and started sobbing like no tomorrow..

TO BE CONTINUED ..
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Sunday, 7 July 2013

chapter 3

hi.. walla 7adi za3lana la2ana i got ZERO views 3ala my last post bas ma3alaih ill still continue...

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PREVIOUSLY..

me: no its not im not supposed to treat you like that..you're not the purpose of anything that's happening to me.. i shouldn't have let all my anger all on u..im sorry..* i started crying after that i was sobbing so hard that i could hardly breath..i was so surprised from what happened next..i felt someone hugging me really tight i looked up to find bader calming me down..i 
couldn't do anything else i really needed that hug..*  
 
bader: come on lets get you home..
 
...

*Bader's point of view*

min awal ma chift hal bint w ana 7abha bs a5af agool liha w a5sarha .. fa el a7ssan ina ma agool liha intim rabi3 a7ssan min wala shay..

*back to MY point of view*

bader got me home and i went straight to my bed .. i was still crying and sobbing..that wass my only way to fall asleep..

*RRRIIINNNGGG...RRRIIINNNGGG...RRRIIINN..*

ugghh i dont feel like going today..so i stayed in bed and decided to go after the class to ask for my missing work..so i went back to sleep and two hours later i woke up..got ready and was off to university..

on my way there i was thinking .. " do i have feelings for him..? NO impossible i just knew him shortly its impossible that i have something for him.." i arrived to the uni. and attended all my classes..i decided to go to *bucks to get some white mocha on my way there i saw someone who i didn't expect to see..i saw my cousin nasser..he once proposed to me but i rejected without thinking .. he's the biggest player ever he was married once but got divorced because his wife knew that he was cheating on her..i wasn't going to risk the same thing happening to me .. when i saw him going in starbucks i changed my mind and turned away to go back to my apartment but before i take another step i thought till when am i going to avoid him? he's my  cousin after all .. so i turned back and walked in to starbucks i stood in line waiting for my turn .. after i ordered i waited for 5 minutes to get my drink .. when i got my drink i was just about to leave when .. 

..: samar..?


i turned to find nasser .. great just great like really i was about to leave i dont want to talk to u wont u like leave me alone i left home to avoid you now you're here .. UGGHHH 


me: umm sorry do i know u ..? 


yes i decided to act dumb 


nasser: ana nasser nisaiteeni..? 


me: *under my breath* 'how can i forget a jacka** 


nasser: gilty shay? 


me: lala .. halla nasser shloonk..?


nasser: el7imdila .. wainch mi5tafya..? 


me: yeet adris hnee .. 


nasser: agool ana laish mayeetay my wedding .. 


me: YOU GOT MARRIED =)) wahahaha YOU ? MARRIED? haha please be kidding 


nasser: la im not kidding.. laish ana shfeeni ??


me: es2al nafsk .. you cheated on a girl and she wasnt your gf she was your freaking WIFE and you still cheated on her .. hope you dont cheat on this one .. 


nasser: samar ana t3'ayart shfeech 3alai chi


me: i dont believe you .. haha.. have a nice life.. haha.. i have to go 


before leaving i saw 2 pair of eyes staring at me and nasser .. guess who .. ?? 



































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i saw bader staring at us.. ' please dont get the wrong idea' next thing i knew was bader storming out of star bucks ok i think that he got the wrong idea .. i shoved my drink on nasser's chest and went running after bader finally i saw him near a cold store smoking .. i walked up to him and.. 


me: you smoke..? 


bader: yes


me: since when ..? 


bader: long time ago 


i took the cigarette from his fingers and threw it on the ground following it with a step 


me: well you'll quit .. starting from now 


bader: you can't stop me 


me: i can trust me i can 


he just stared at me for what seemed like 5 seconds then looked away 


me: umm i saw u getting in to star bucks


bader: yes


me: but then u left..why?


bader: i changed my mind


me: stop lying 


bader: im not lying 


me: oh really? 


bader: yes really 


me: well .. one: if you changed your mind you wont storm out of the place like that . two: you looked at me straight in the eye then stared at nasser then you stormed out 


bader: hahaha you know his name thats good 


me: WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ?


bader:  WHATS WRONG WITH ME?? YOU'RE SERIOUSLY ASKING ME THAT ??


me: YES IM ASKING YOU THAT ..!!


bader: WHATS WRONG WITH ME IS THAT I CANT HANDLE SEEING YOU GO HANG OUT WITH SOME RANDOM GUYS IF YOU WERE SMART ENOUGH YOU WOULD HAVE FIGURED IT OUT !!


me: FIGURED WHAT OUT ??


bader: THAT I FREAKING F***ING LOVE YOU !!!


with that we went from screaming and shouting to complete silence .. i? i just walked away silently with tears in my eyes.. 


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wanna know why samar walked away ? why was she crying? and what will happen next ..? 


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